Been sleeping off and on today. Still recovering from the flu, and tiring easily. Drinking a lot of grapefruit juice helps, it's my go-to drink when I don't feel well.
Did my grocery shopping over the weekend. My gentleman friend says he won't take me anymore due to the fact that I purchased every bottle of my favorite brand of grapefruit juice. I do that every time, and he says that just as often.
My Beastie had a huge seizure on Friday. It's so frightening to see her like that. She's staggering, and then on the floor with everything shaking, in absolute terror. I worry about her, she's my right hand and my partner in crime. I'm lost without her. She's the one who goes nuts when my vertigo hits, making sure I get my medication. She's who I hang onto when I've fallen and need help getting up. She tells me when there is a knock at the door, or when someone comes near when I cannot see them. She sits at my heels, facing outward to protect me when I use an ATM. She's the one who leads me in the darkness and gets me home safely. She's the one I snuggle with when my eyes see nothing, and I'm frightened in the dark. She's my best buddy and my confidant, the keeper of secrets, the reason I smile most days.
There is medication for her seizures. However, if I start her on it, she can never go off it. As it is, she has a few minor seizures, and a couple of major ones each year. It's enough for now to keep her on her allergy medicine and fish oil capsules. I don't want her drugged any more than absolutely necessary. If the seizures start coming more frequently, we'll revisit the option to medicate her for them.
On to other things...
I picked up three trays and an end table over the weekend. They'll all become backgammon boards soon. I'm really excited over the end table. It has a drawer to store game pieces, is cherry wood (I think), and has great bones. I got the table and all three trays for under $16 at a thrift store. I'm making backgammon boards using a lot of different mediums, experimenting, and just having fun with them. It's such a lovely hobby to have, and I'm enjoying myself thoroughly.
Planning to go on another cruise soon. I'm trying to coordinate my wardrobe in order to pack everything for 10 days into a carryon bag. At this moment it seems impossible to do. My shoes alone will require a large bag. Time to use my color identifying apps and try again.
Really, I'm enjoying the travels with my gentleman friend, but I'm just as happy staying at home. Home is where everything is familiar. With low to no vision, depending on light levels, I need the familiar. I need to have things where I can find them, to know where the furniture is, etc. I get tired of the ever changing collection of bruises from running into things that I cannot see in strange places.
I want to see as many things and places as I can while a bit of sight remains. I'm content to see them through the iPad or laptop connected to the big screen tv that I sit just inches from. I'm committing them all to memory. There are few details left in my sight, even at optimal light levels. Mostly, I get overall impressions of things and extrapolate the rest. I know that I miss a lot, and it's beyond frustrating. But, it will be alright.
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