Still working on recovering from the flu. This year I've caught bugs twice, for the first time in over twenty years. My body takes weeks to snap back afterwards, and it's frustrating.
Working on backgammon boards, and having a lovely time. Still trying to make them well enough to sell, and can only work on them for a few moments before the screaming headaches set in. My fingers are covered with blisters from using a hot glue gun. It seems I'm incapable of using it without injuring myself. Still, I keep trying, and will get it right. I'm using the loveliest images I can find online to practice and learn on. It makes working on them a true pleasure, even if they don't turn out well.
Colored my hair tonight. Spread the stuff all over, told Siri to let me know when forty minutes have passed, then rinsed for ten minutes. I hope it turned out well, at least covering the grey, which is my intention. I miss having a hairdresser. I'm sure that my hair turns out looking like shit much of the time. Being unable to see the results makes hairstyling hard. I won't give up. Looking nice is important to me.
I've got to figure out how to fix a seam in my best dress. I think I can stitch it by touch, but I can't see to thread a needle. Hopefully, when my sister-in-law gets back from her Ohio trip in a week or so, I can get her to stop by and thread a few for me.
I'm ready for vacation. My gentleman friend is taking me on a cruise in a few weeks. Mainly, I want to swim in the ocean and walk on the beaches. I want to tuck the memories of the tropical breezes and the sand between my toes away for the future. I want to smell the salt air, and have someone describe the waves coming in to me as they lap against my feet in the surf. I want to hear the seagulls and smell the tropical flowers. I want to speak Spanish with people who have grown up speaking it, instead of learning it from books. I want to absorb the whole experience, holding the hand of someone who treasures me, and treats me like I'm a precious gift. And, I want him to be proud to have me with him. I guess I'm expecting a lot from this trip.
I always thought that my life would turn out a lot differently. There were a lot of things which did not go well. Things I had no control over. Things which hurt me badly, and altered the way in which I think and live and look at things. There has also been so much which is wonderful and breathtaking. Things which have touched my and soul in ways which I never could have expected. My life plan has been rewritten so many times that I should just keep it on a dry erase board. Circumstances change things greatly, some things discarded while others are altered. I'm still astonished to find myself single and living alone at 54 years old. But, I'm learning more about myself as I go. Not having to consider the wants and needs of family under my roof has given me the freedom to live as I want to. My time is my own, and I make the most of it. I keep studying new and favorite topics, loving that there are free online classes to listen to. I listen to music most of the time as I do home keeping chores or work on hobbies. I am delighted to discover that my home is always clean now that no one lives with me. Even Demeter puts her toys back in the basket when she's done with them. My body limits me with health issues, but I keep trying to do things which I enjoy, both old and new.
Enough for now...
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