I'm thinking about dating again. At times I think I'm ready. At others, I wonder about it. Am I ready to invite someone, even casually, into my life? I've been alone for over six months, and would like to spend time with someone. There's a difference between alone and lonely. I know them both well.
Still, I think I'd like to get out some. To go on dates, and have some fun. To spend time with someone nice, who likes me. Who doesn't want to change me.
I wonder what it will be like to date since I can no longer see faces. It worries me to not see facial expressions, to miss cues like smiles and frowns.
Finding a guy is easy. I meet them all of the time. They give me their phone numbers. I haven't given out mine so far.
One guy that I've known for years kept hitting on me until I told him about my health, vision, etc. Thought that I'd be upfront and honest, and not lead him on. Well, the news is that I've not heard from him since. Not many guys want to take on a relationship with someone who has health problems, especially some that are fairly serious.
I get it, I really do. If I was interested in someone, and they told me that they had major health problems, I'd have to think it over. I'd not rule them out, but I would look at it from all angles.
So, no matter how good I look, how nicely I dress, whether or not I'm a lady (I am), the facts that I'm smart, funny, kind, well read, and play a mean game of backgammon, and have excellent taste, etc. Are balanced against the illness factors. The blindness and health issues will be either the jokers or the trump cards.
I'll just have to see how it all plays out.....
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